Actively Working

As I go along my days I realize that I have to start acting as though I have already changed. I have to start believing that this change can happen. But I can't just sit idly by waiting for the change to finally come. I have to be actively working towards this new me. Like duh!

I've started exercising again as well. I really do love exercising. It makes me feel so much better about myself. I love exercising first thing in the morning too. I just wish it would help me eat better during the day. But most of the time it has the opposite effect on me. Geez, I exercised today I deserve to have this or that. That's not how it should work. In combination with good food, exercise could be an incredible tool. It is without the right foods. But with the right foods, holy cow you could become a well oiled machine.

Now that my kids are all in school I'm trying to stay even more active. Keep my mind and my hands busy. Get projects done around the house, de-clutter, pull weeds, make sure my mind and body is ready for the moment the kids step foot into the house.

I think this journey will be more about the steps it takes me to get to my destination, rather then the final destination itself. This is a journey of re-discovery and it's exciting. I've thought a lot about what my dreams are, what they use to be. Have they changed? And do I really have any dreams? Right now my job is to be a mother. And I love that. But I still have to remember to be working toward something for the day that they all finally leave. What will that "something" be? I don't want to get lost in translation.

Exercise In, Eating good Out

It's so great to have you aboard Brooke! I'm sorry to hear that you hurt your back! That stinks. I use that as an excuse all the time. Until I realized that working out actaully helps me to heal. In more way then one.

I have no problems exercising right now. I'm not lifting weights, which I miss. I don't miss a day of walking/jogging. I walk more then I jog! I go every morning at 7am and I'm gone for 60 minutes. It's great therapy.

I do have problems eating though. I really believe I have an addiction. I just can't stop eating no matter how horrible I feel after eating. It just simply tastes too good and is far to tempting to say no. I have to stop this behavior though. It's pulling me down!

I have no action plan right now. I'm just trying to be "good". And so far, not even that is working!

Haha!

Well this didn't exactly go as planned. I haven't been writing, and I haven't been doing 100 good days. I have been eating better then normal, but my exercise has dropped off the planet. I hurt my back last week and I think I've kind of used it as an excuss. I can't seem to want to get myself to the gym. I know I should, I know I feel better after I go, I know all that stuff...but I don't want to go. I'm tired. I guess it doesn't help that I'm writing this at 11:24pm when I should be going to bed. Well tomorrow is another day and I can do better.

Start your engines!

Alright, let's get this party started!! I had a good day today. I ate 5 small meals. Drank lots of water and I had 2+ servings of fruits and veggies. It's late, but I need to go workout for at least 20 minutes so I'm going to make this short. I feel good about today and I'm excited about what's to come! I think my motto for this journey is going to be "One life, one body". I only have this one life and I need to be enjoying it as much as possible. My lack of fitness interferes with that a lot, so I need to change that. And, I only have one body. I'm blessed to have a healthy body and I need to take care of it. It's easier to get into shape when you're younger so now is the time to do it! So, that's it for now. How's everyone else doing?! :)